I was bringing a lot of emotional baggage from my previous two careers. In both careers, mistakes could have some really disastrous impacts on those who made them and the firm's future efforts. In the first career, future contracts with other clients could be damaged if the failure was large enough. Your standing in the community could take a hit as well, along with your potential career path.
In the second career, mistakes that were serious enough could lead to legal action. There was a lot of pressure on you to make sure what you did was right, and that what the people you worked with and shepherded through a complex process was correct. It fell on you to be very concerned about the outcome, whether the person you were working with appreciated the magnitude of the potential issue or not.
Needless to say, this led to some very stressful moments in two careers. I realized I was carrying those expectations and all the emotional baggage I had developed related to those expectations along into this new career, where expectations were different ... quite different.
I am working hard right now to drop that baggage. I want to uncurl my clenched hands and drop the handles, leaving all that debris where it lies. I imagine there will be a lot of freedom to that and, with that baggage dropped, an ability to move forward more creatively. It will be easier to commit to new projects, new pathways, new expectations, when not in a defensive crouch wary of pitfalls that no longer apply.
It was quite an epiphany, a great moment, and I thank those I work with for making it possible.
Wishing you such moments of enlightenment as you move forward in your career. Let the baggage fall and move forward with a new spring in your step.
For more posts on the new career, see: http://jsbrookspresents.blogspot.com/2014/05/new-career-new-challenges-dealing-with.html, http://jsbrookspresents.blogspot.com/2014/05/new-career-new-challenges-partial.html, http://jsbrookspresents.blogspot.com/2014/03/managing-your-new-job-month-one.html, and http://jsbrookspresents.blogspot.com/2014/07/stress-relief-through-old-favorite-book.html